Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Saturday, April 27, 2013
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Felling like I can eat the world
Lowest I've ever gotten was 32, highest was 402. As far as I know. (90's are where a non "D" would stay) There was a time before I was married and living in my apartment with my best friend. I had been out grocery shopping and as soon as I had pulled into the parking lot of our apartment I realized I was low. I felt like I barely made it inside. I vagley remember just eating anything in site. A bagel with peanut butter, a piece of fruit, way more that I usually would for a low, but I guess I was bad because I never sky rocketed after eating all of that. I had to be out of it though because when my roommate came home I had left my keys in the front door.
Just because I correct one doesn't mean the other won't shortly follow. There are days when it's definitely a roller coaster and I can't seem to level out no matter what I do.
Monday, April 22, 2013
You know those times when there is so much stress in your life but you keep fighting the tears to stay strong? Yet you know that something little and dumb is what's going to make you crack and that dumb thing will be the reason that you turn into a ball of blubbering snot and tears. That moment just happened for me. Dumb female and hormonal issues. Being T1 as you know by now if you have been reading this blog has its own set of emotional issues. Add in being a female, and three other hormone imbalance issues and I'm shocked I'm not in a looney bin. God have mercy on my poor husband, I don't know how he puts up with me. He is a saint for being with me.
Friday, April 19, 2013
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
I had a whole thing written, then just decided it sounded stupid, so I'm not even going to try and sound contemplative or anything. To top off this not so pleasant day, I think my meter is being schizophrenic. Brad and I were in the car having a conversation, I was totally with it, but I did feel a bit funny so I checked my BG, 26!!!!!! Freak out time! I downed one of my emergency Capri Sun, then started to down another. My much smarter hubby in these freak out situations told me to check again. How could I really be so low and I not be acting weird? I checked and it said 98, checked on my old meter, 86. How can there be that much of a difference? Needless to say I didn't finish my second Capri Sun. Oiy vey! So I've been checking all night as I watch my BG climb, but my pump tells me not to bolus yet, I still have plenty of active insulin. I have no idea what was going on with my meter. I'm honestly not even sure if it's possible to drop as low as 26 and not go into a coma or pass out? Lowest I've seen myself is 32, and that's pretty dangerous but it does happen on a rare occasion. That's my life, but I'm going to keep plugging away. So take that stupid "D"!!!!
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Saturday, April 6, 2013
Ok, maybe this is a little weird and random but I'm trying to grow sweet potatoes. I've had them in their containers for about two weeks. They are getting pretty leafy, but I woke up this morning and they are finally developing roots!!!!
Friday, April 5, 2013
St. Louis is FINALLY getting spring I believe!!! Yay! I tend to go through fazes where I work out, then just don't keep up with it. Last year at the beggining of the year I did really well, prob stuck with it for a good six month but then I wasn't seeing any results, (due to a hypothyroid I had no idea I had.) so I guess I just gave up. Well now it's warming up out side, and Brad just bought me a taser recently, so now I'm walking two miles a few times a week. It may not be Insanity or P90X but it's somthing right? And why is the taser an encouragement to walk you might ask? Because I don't care where you live there are crazies and freaks out there and I want to be able to protect myself. Below is a picture from my walk today. It was gorgeous out! This year I'm totally doing the JDRF walk which I think is in October maybe and I'm pretty pumped already!
So, appointment with the dietitian..... It went pretty well. I'm not as uneducated as I thought. I did learn a few things but it was mainly really encouraging. Another person that helped me realize all the worries, emotion and all of it are normal. Talked to Debbie again on Wednesday and she adjusted somethings on my pump. Before it was always getting frustrated because of highs, now last few days I have been getting low a lot therefore I feel like I'm eating like a pregnant woman at times. Ok, well just another bump in the road. I just read an article today that explained things about being T1D better than I can. Check it out.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Tuesday nights since seeing Debbie my diabetes educator I log my BG levels. Because of all the highs I get discouraged when I see the log that I have written out for the week. I feel like I'm sitting on pins and needles until I hear from Debbie once she receives my log on Wednesday morning. She calls me, has me adjust my settings on my insulin pump and encourages me that it's not my fault, that it will never be perfect but will get better if I keep doing what I'm doing. Up until yesterday, after she adjusted my pump settings last week my numbers were better than they have been in ages! I was getting excited! Then last night before dinner I was low, an hour after dinner I was low. I drank a juice box, felt really out of it. Brad wouldn't leave the house for where he needed to be until he could tell I was okay. I was pretty out of it for a few minutes. Thought the juice box was kicking in, forgot to check myself again till about an hour later and I had dropped more. I sucked down another juice box, that seemed to help but then I got high for a bit then bed time I was low again. Eeerrrrgggg.... This morning was worse though. An hour after breakfast I checked, 122 was my BG, not bad at all. In a half hour I dropped from that to 48! How is that even possible? I was sitting at my desk all morning, not running a marathon! Got myself straightened out after that for most of the day but tonight have been low. I'll feel better after talking to Debbie tomorrow I hope. I also have my appointment with the dietitian. I'm excited for that. I know that this is forever a continuing education and I will never stop learning about T1D. I'm sure I'll be writing tomorrow. I guess tonight I just needed to vent. I think I need to get another snack.